Give and take

I recently accepted a head coach position for Hailey's cheer team. It has been nice to leave the house for a couple hours every night. Though when I accepted the position I didn't think about the fact that I would have to leave Preslyn. Yes, she's 6 months old and the longest I've left her for is maybe 10 minutes. This week has gone really well. I've come home and Paul has had the kids bathed and asleep. I don't know how or why I'm enjoying swapping 4 girls for 50 but it's working and a much needed break. I never thought I would hope for the kids to still be awake when I got home. Tomorrow I have to leave Preslyn for 7 hours and I feel sick over it. I'm not sure how she'll do without me for that long and it breaks my heart to think of how she'll feel.  I love being able to take some time to myself but giving up my time with the girls is hard.I know I'll be racing home after training tomorrow to hold all of my little girls!